So, I'm pregnant

So, I'm pregnant. I found out almost as soon as it's currently possible to do so with a home pregnancy test about 7 weeks ago. We had done the IUI thing less than 2 weeks before, but all the test kit instructions now say that there's some chance (about 50%, I think) of getting a positive result about 4 days before your period is due. So, I checked for the first time 4 days before my period w0uld be due if I had a normal cycle, and nothing. At which point I spent two days coming to terms with the fact that I might not be pregnant at all, and then some time convincing myself that if I took another pregnancy test on the Sunday morning 2 days later it would be okay if it was negative because it might still be too early to tell. What a pleasant surprise when it was positive! I spent some time getting used to the idea and staring at the little line (giddy with lack of sleep as I had worked all night the night before), then made a plan for calling Adam at the church which involved asking him if anyone was there yet first before telling him so that he could make any expressions of great joy that he might be moved to without any clever congregants getting the hint that we might have happy news a bit too soon. In the end, Adam was fairly restrained about it; I think that in addition to not feeling quite the need for a third child that I do, it really takes Adam a while before he feels connected to an in-utero baby (as it does for me). Also, I think that we both have moms who tend toward the histrionic when it comes to news like this and have both developed fairly subdued styles of emotional response to things like this as a result of our respective childhoods. This might be why we also waited so long to tell people when I was pregnant with E and why we plan to wait a while with this one. I'm a proponent of telling people over the phone, in fact. I want this to be my own, and Adam's, experience, and not have to worry about artificially matching someone else's excitement level. I am allowed to be very happy and excited in my own way, and if I avoid the initial joy explosion of other people, at least in person, I can enjoy this myself more.

I'd like to continue with this over the next few work days if I have the time, focusing the blog more on my pregnancy than other stuff now that I'm picking it back up again.